Coming full circle

I had great intentions of keeping a BLOG of my adventure and posting a website where my progress could be followed by those interested to do so. Both were started and never completed, and here I am 8 months later heading back to the states without a single story told or tale shared. There is this internal pressure to journal in chronological order or not journal at all, but those first stories though pertinent in my development have been replaced by more recent experiences that continue to shape my existence…so I have finally gone against my nature and decided to start in the present and go back as the memories arise.

Coming full circle…it has taken me a while to determine the overlying purpose of my moving to the UK. I initially thought it was born of my long love affair with Europe and my need to explore other career options before I fell into a trap I did not want to be in. What I have discovered is something much deeper and thus subconscious. This was about closure. Just writing it sends chills through my body. The truth of it resonates with my core. I have been trying to close this chapter of my life for 17 years. I have kept myself so busy as to not have to think about it much, but there has always been a little something at the back of my head that would not let the aspiration die.

I have seen people I have not seen since ’91…people I would not have imagined I would not see again. There is something about the youthful mind that is eternal. Why I would think these relationships would be here without even as much as a number? There was no email or cell phones, yet I truly believed we would go on forever…it was a convincing “see you later” and not “good bye.” I now know better and thanks to modern technology have connected with those I had thought lost. It is what also confirms for me the completion of this experience for me for I have met the most important and influential people of my life from that time. This time though, I have not met nor left them lightly. I have taken this opportunity to express my gratitude and love for the past and present. I have hugged and kissed, laughed and cried and literally been present with them. I feel blessed.